The good things in my life...(so far)

Okay , I'm really sorry about my last gloomy post ...
to make it up to you guys , I've decided to write about happier times ...
Hmmm... lets see...

You know this whole year is the most happening year of all...
wanto know why ? well firstly I knew a HUGE secret from a friend of mine .
I can't tell you guys cause its not mine so ... sorry...

secondly well I used to be the quiet , rebellious girl (and still am sometimes) but I managed to Change , a little which is a big deal ^^ . Now I can talk all day long and still make an Idiot of my self .... Oh well , some things never change ^^

thirdly well , I dunno maybe cause this year I know I have lots of admirers (*blush* he he he), seriously >,< ! well I'm kinda shocked with some of them though ... ut still ... I'm kinda wondering why on earth would someone like , like me... I don't think that I'm attractive or anything... I don't care about my appearence , I sometimes act like a boy , my clothes are well ... really messy and most of all I like to make 'the angry' face (I call it that because I pretend to be angry when I'm not). Acaemicly ? not at all smart ....

oh well... lets just leave it at that *wink* he he he...

Lots of activeties this year...
people are mostly studying for our big exam but not me ... what am I doing (other then sleeping and drawing) I helped teachers at school (to get out of classes) and joining extra curricular actevities....(I'm not the least bit supraised if I didn't get 8A's for my exam...sigh...)

what else ???
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I know !!!
I finally got the courage to ... talk...to the person I like ....
even If its just a "ab...ah...h...h..hi....HI!"
well i know , pretty pathetic but I can't help it !!!
I'm shy to death ... Hippie said my face looked like a tomato ready to burst because I'm blushing sooo furiously....
oh well better luck next time -_-*

I was thinking...

Hey there ...
you know how my school ha sended right ???
well and you know how much I like to day dream and stuff...(when you see I'm smiling when I'm all alone is when I'm day dreaming ... of hyper whichever comes first) anyway here is the list of things that I day dreamed of today ... yes I actually got diligent enough to actually jot down what I was ACTUALLY thinking in this ACTUAL day !!!!!!! (actually thats a bit to much actual isen't it ???)

1)What the ?!?
I just woke up , I'm trying to anilisy what I was dreaming last night and what day it was today and all the usual facts...

2)What to do today...
well It IS the holidays remember ... well what to do ??? go back to sleep ? draw ? read a book ? Draw ? bake something and finish it my self ? so many questions ..... after hearing my stomach grumble ... I finaly decided to EAT... funny ... I never thought of eating ... *shrug*

3)What to eat
Cereal ? oatmeal ? nothing ? (my stomach disagree an the last thought)

4)what my friends are doing...
Sarah ? probobly sleeping and so is Alia and Nana ... Faie ? maybe of to work ... Mai ? No Clue... Daus? I don't wanna know... my future hubby ??? I wonder ....

5)what I'm doing if I'm at school...
probobly not bathing my cat thats for sure ...

6) future hubby ^^
what IS he doing right now....

7)wish I'm...
at school , having something to do ... hanging out with my BFFs (Best Freakish Friends)...having a laptop and playing games , online facebook/myspace ... updating my blog . ect

8)future hubby (again) ^^
I wonder what he is doing NOW.....probobly thinking of ME !!!
LOL !!!!! (no doubt ^^)

9)the last time I hung out with...
my BFFs , library Crew (my fellow Librarians or Libbys as I like to call them) my future hubby *blush* *blush* and Daus ... (why am I thinking of him???? EEEWWWWWWWW)

10) things...
Funny things (I'll smile) , sad things (I'll bit my lip) , embarassing things (I'll blow my cheeks to stop them from blushing) and things I wish that would happen .... (hmmm.... I'll think I want a pure white wedding dress ^^)

11)If...
I can drive , I won't have to cycle to Faies house , If I can have superpowers it would be mind reading and telecanysis .... so COOL ^^

12)future hubby....
I miss you ... do you miss me ???
(of course , who wouldn't right ?)

got to go now ... bye!!!

last day of school and other woes...

well yesterday IS the last day of school for all us lower secondary school students and I've got to admit its not as happy/sad as it used to be...

Sigh.....

you know how I always have this song stuck in my head according to my mood ?
well right now its Paramaore-ignorence...

If I'm a bad person , you don't like me ...
well I guess I'll make my own way...

keep poping in and out of my head, and also these lyrics,

well this is the best thing,
that could've happen,
any longer , I wouldn't have made it ,
It's not a war no ,
its not a repture ,
I'm just a person but you can't take it...

well... Its kinda how I feel right now... sigh

O.K breath in .... out ....
yesterday is the last day of school , now I'm stuck at home with nothing to do ....
with only my thoughts for company ....
BORING !!!!!!

anyways , nothing to write so....
See ya guys...

Taken

sigh ... I'm sooo disappointed today... why?

well have you ever know what it feels like for something (I said something NOT someone) taken away from you ??? Some thing that you have worked hard for or at least having high hopes for it .... but in the end you know it would disappear ?

I have , lots of times ... I never minded then , but maybe my ignorance then has finally taken its toll on me .... I actually cried !!! I rarely cry at school ... except when I was sick ... even then It tried to hide the tears. Any way all I'm saying is that to me , art is like apart of me ... weather in acting(average but still pretty good *wink*), singing (don't forget to bring some ear-plugs and an umbrella) or drawing(LOVE IT !!!). Its true , I've been drawing since the time I can hold a pencil and stand(you should see the walls of my old home soooo artistic if I do say so myself *smiles*).

I have this Idea/image/vision on how the drawing is suppose to be ... even if its not mine entirely I'll try my best to imagine it the artist's way .... and I know that I'M younger the you and I should RESPECT my SENIORS but as one of the designer , I have the right to voice out my disapproval , and as a RIGHT MINDED SENIOR (more like a senior citizen to me) you should at least take the time to hear me out , take the time to actually see what I have drawn ... what me and my friend have in our (more to his) minds when we actually design the drawing... ask us what colour it should be because we are the ones who design it and not YOU , you think that our drawing is some kind of colouring book ??? I know you don't have enough creativity to ACTUALLY design it and what makes you think you can colour with creativity as well ??? Who the heck do you think you are ??? We (me and Daus) asked many teachers on what colour we should use , and the teachers agree but YOU ???? only a mare students who ,is ONLY a year older ??? Oh please...

Think about it , I know everyone wants to contribute something to the school before they leave next year or the year after that but try to d it with out hurting anyone else's feelings .... I'm really upset,disappointed and ashamed on the drawing .... It's not that I don't like the colours and all but I just felt ... disappointed that it didn't go as planned .... That's why i prefer to do things myself....and not hope for people to do it for me cause I know they don't know what I want and I know they can't read minds...

Oh well , whats done is done ... we can't change the past (or drawing at the very least)...

K got to go now , i'll talk (write) to you guys later then ^^ Bye ^^

Paramore- ignorence

(SERIOUSLY !!!!! I've forgotten how to place a vid on my blog !!!! someone help me !!!)


Paramore-ignorance

if I'm a bad person , you don't like me,
well i guess I'll make my own way,
s a circle
a mean cycle
i cant excite you anymore
wheres your gavel? your jury?
whats my offense this time?
you re not a judge but if you re gonna judge me
well sentence me to another life.

dont wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
the friends who stuck together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

this is the best thing that couldve happened
any longer and i wouldnt have made it
its not a war no, its not a rapture
im just a person but you cant take it
the same tricks that once fooled me
they wont get you anywhere
im not the same kid from your memory
now i can fend for myself

dont wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
we used to stick together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

what is your colour Aura ???

Orange
Orange personalities are the creative adventurers in the color spectrum. They have an inner urge to be creative, active and enjoy life to its fullest. They are also individual and independent and integrate physical and mental qualities. They en...joy the challenge and excitement of forming and shaping physical reality. Orange personalities love to imagine and plan strategies for their next adventure or project and then put those plans into action. They need to be involved in the actual working process and want to physically shape and form their own ideas. They have difficulty sitting back and letting other people do things for them. They are always busy building, organizing and shaping their projects and physical reality. An Orange personality's motivation in life is based on how much pleasure and satisfaction they get out of their own adventures, challenges and creative projects. They want to be adventurous, creative and live out their own ideas.


Green
Greens are balanced, harmonious, and peaceful personalities. They need harmony in their life and prefer to live in a natural environment. They are the most balanced people in the color spectrum. They also have a powerful connection with nature. Living in the country, next to a forest or park or close to a lake or ocean is important for these friendly and heartfelt personalities. Greens are open, extroverted, expressive, friendly, communicative and heartfelt. Greens perceive life through their heart. Their primary motivations are contentment and harmony. They judge their successes by how close they are to their friends or nature. Greens are content personalities. If they are in power and have found their place they need very little to be happy or feel needed. Their inner happiness and satisfaction is important to them and is fulfilled without much expectation.


Red
The more excitement they experience the more alive they will feel. Reds are practical, action-oriented, love to achieve results and be successful. They have an insatiable urge to win and create something valuable and important in their life. Their strong will power and intense, almost unlimited physical energy allows them to be extremely active, persistent and successful in virtually anything they do.


Blue
Blues are the most caring, nurturing and protective personalities in the color-spectrum. They live out of their hearts and their emotions. Their life purpose is to serve, help and love others. Blues have an inner knowledge and wisdom and they feel and know what is right without needing facts or data for substantiation. The moment they become quiet inside, they will recognize or hear an inner voice or guidance, which will tell them what to do. They can easily tune into other people and feel precisely what is going on. Blues are the most emotional of all the color personalities. They often feel lost if they don't have the opportunity to clear their way through their intense jungle of deep feelings. Helpful activities for Blues would include talking with friends about their inner life, writing a journal or just being quiet so their intense emotions can calm down.

Yellow
Yellows are the sunniest, happiest and most childlike personalities in the color-spectrum. "All I want to do is have some fun!" is a song which is a wonderful representation of Yellows and shows their easy going, light and sunny character. These playful people have a wonderful sense of humor. They love to laugh and intimately enjoy life from many different angles. They advocate relaxation, the pure joy of life and live spontaneously. They are always reminding other people to not take life too seriously and to always look on the bright side. Life and work should both be enjoyed.

General Aura
an aura is a spiritual representation of who you are. at the moment, yours is very well balanced. eventually you may want to find a color to stick with, though.


soo what is yours ???
mine is orange ^^

Backstabers

I just hate them don't you ?

well for one thing backstabbers are total LOSERS because they know they will lose if they actually confront the person who they are backstabbing... what a LOSER ^^

second thing is that back stabbers are also COWARDS because they didn't have the courage or guts to tell the person what is bothering them in the first place .

third thing is that they are on of those NO-TALENTs who unfortunately for them have no talent at all and are always jealous of others and hates them for actually having a talent at something...
Awww...

forth , is that they are always all of the above....

actually , backstabbers are meant to be pitied , why ? of course because well not many people can be an absolute poop head , gutless coward and no talents at the same time right ? well not to mention that no one wants to be in the first place.... but still there are many backstabbers out there... It may or may not be you but please bear in mind that no one likes a backstabber... have Any problems with me , just confront me so I know that your not a gutless coward who has no talent what so ever and have a poop for a head ^-^

sorry , sorry , sorry ...

I know I haven't posted any post lately so ... here it is ... a post ...

L-A-M-E!!!
lame ...

I know ...
well hopefully I'll continue posting to this blog some time soon ...