Moving ??

Well the title is actually half right...
I'm moving to a new room today ...
my brothers are getting to big for their room and since I'm the only girl...
yeah you'd guessed it...
the ol'switch-a-roo

I'm one of those person that thinks my room is my own personal space , I hate the thought of someone entering my room and move anything or whatever ... It's not like I'm aneat freak or something (no offence) , Its actually the opposite ...My rooms a mess... It looked like a tornado hat hit or a rats nest (by my mom's standards) anyway but I just like it the way it is...

I can find things ... I know where I placed them ..Even if it looks like a mess to you but to me its actually a complicated yet organized and simple system in which I can place things and still find them in less the 30 seconds ...
you may not know how to find things in the 'Mess' but I can ...
Its the freedome of decorating your room ...

Okay back to the story... ( I always seem to stray away from the main topic don't I ? :) )
anyway , There I was , going back and forth carrying stuff from my ex-room to 'my' new room...
I kept thinking about all the good times there was in my room , like the time me and my friends had a sleep-over and we ended up sleeping at 3 (hey wait that is at my friends house =.=") , and the time I got my computer...I got home and its there ...:') and the 2 sleepless nights I spend making a mural on the walls of my room... I made it from a can of sky blue paint , a small can of night sky blue paint and a whole lot of love ... now its in the other room and no longer mine... (its my very first and sucessfull one too *sniff* )

sigh.... I'm quite sad today... and while I was cleaning and ...throwing some of my beloved treasures away , I had found some of the things that reminded me of the past 4 and 5 and evev 10 years of my life... I found some of the sketchings when I'm in kindergarten , primary school (yeah , I really love to draw , Back then I used to get scolded for drawing on the biggest , whitest and perfect drawing thing of all...thats right...the wall of my entire house :D ) I had saw the paper me and Hippie had drew on last yer when she lost her voice (that and because I'm terrible at sherades .... ham am I suppose to know that carrying air into your mout meand that she wanted some of my water =.=" ) and even pictures of me and my friends when we are in primary school...

sigh .. how time flew...
Wish I'm back at kindergarten with my Friends and climbing tree with your skirts and don't care a darn thing... oh well ... Its like 1:41 am here and I still have to clean my room and get up early tomorrow... sooo...Nite2 ^^

7/6/2010
1:41 am

Sports day...

Of Oreos and Blue cheese :D

Hehehe...
Its been a busy day...
=.="
hmm.... not really , I even slept in class... (shh....lets keep his as our secret k ?? ;) )

First of all...
I felt really emo today...
not emotional as in Cry, cry , cry all the time...
just a bit dark , quiet and most of all creepy...

hmmm....

secondly...
we got lectured by a guest in our school... It was pretty cool... I guess...
kinda funny but thats just it...

then there was a meeting for all the houses in my school (Yellow , Red , Green , Blue)
Me and Sarah is in the yellow house...

And guess what ???
Sarah is also moody , Just like me ^^
well you know what they say ,
"Misery Loves company" ^^

then when we were sitting on the road*
some one threw a rock (more like a pebble) at Sarah...
Which annoys her alot...
she said...

"Which F***ing Idiot threw a stone at me ?!?!"

I only shook my head..
then as I was turning around to talk to Sarah ,
Some one threw a rock at me...
AND IT ALMOST HITS MY RIGHT EYE !!!!!

"OKay , Which Freakin Moron threw the stone at me ?!?!?!"
(Note: if you don't know me then I'll be more then happy to inform you that , I don't use/say/write/type bad words ^^ Thank you ^^)

then I looked around at the boys section....
There he is !!!!
the culpirit was a Form 3 student...
and he is throwing stones at everyone in the perimetre =.="
What a .... uh.... (thinking of a word to say) ... hmm... ask Sarah ^-^

the I worked at the Library , even when I felt really ill...
but jobs are jobs right ?

hmm...

after spending 3 hours in the Library , I went to check out some frineds who are helping out the teachers on the PA system (what PA stands for ?? hmm... Dunno... )

Poor Muaz , he was sitting alone...bored and sweaty :P
His partner in crime , Adi still hasn't come yet , (due to un-mentionable circumstances :P)

After the whole 'Party'
I finally got home...

at home after doing my loads of chores...
I felt really hungry and thirsty
SO I ate some Oreos ^^

and had some of my brothers Blue Cheese :D
They were really YUMMY !!! (but the blue cheese was a BIT stinky...)

hmmm... No matter how hard and tiring your day is,
A packet of Oreos and some Blue Cheese can make it all better =D

*We were gathered in front of my schools workshop , and since there isn't much cement on the hall way , we sat on the Tar Road (something) .... =.="

:'( (longest post ever ^^)

Its a sad day.... Its the day when the second wave of the seperations begin ...

The friends that we have spent time with for the past...who knows how long...are finally spreading their wings and are flying away...

it seem just like yeasterday when we first met...and the times we spent togather was like ages ago.... now your finally moving on...to a new life and a new begining... I know you won't forget us here and the memories that we share... But hope you can look back when you are there... to the time when we were laughing under the sun.. to the time that everything was fun... to the lessons that we have learn... the trust that we have earn... the memories that can never ever be forgotten...

Best giler main ngan diorg...

BOOOO :)

meeting :P

LIPAAAS!!!!! kelakar giler mase nie ^^

Perkhwainan Razan .... :') ....I'm soooo happy for her :')

AMIR JELES !!!!! >:P

...nothing to do ^^

Wwow , i got my Lappy back ^^
YEAY !!!!

confused ???

hahaha , Well my laptop was taken away from me by my parents ....
sad isn't it ???
tonnes of things has come and go like my friends , the Larian 7 (the cross-country race around my school) , my principle's ...uh.... retirement party , and tonnes of things. and I'm starting to get lots of friends in my class ... noth boys and girls ^^

well I want to talk about an assignment my English teacher gave us , It is about L-O-V-E , yes love... I wrote a poem on love and my pet , family and friends but now I'll write a different love poem ... hope you like it...

I sat there in my room ,
thinking what to write ,
then I thought of you ,
and the way you gave me,
good dreams at night .

you had always mades me laugh,
spending time with you was never enough,
you gave me butterflies ,
when you looked at me with those eyes ,

Your were the fire that inspired me to draw,
the fire that kept me warm,
that feeling I so adore,
kept me safe in a thunder storm,

The warm nights used to remind me of you,
when the cool breeze touched my face,
I'd be thinking if you'd felt the same way too,
cuz' love is like a rollercoster race ,

Love makes my heart beat faster ,
It makes my breath dissapear ,
when ever you came closer ,
I wish that were like this forever ...

I love you but you left me hoping,
for something that's impossible,
I love you but you left me hangging ,
and makes me feel invincible...

Now you ment nothing to me,
just another love struct puppy ,
falling for the soul mate that you have found,
but what goes around , comes around...

L
\ \(^o^) (what a LOSER)

LOL

busy busy busy busy

22nd January 2010

Whoa!!!

this year is getting extreamly busyy...not just for me but every one in form 4.... and to make it worse , its just the end of the 3rd week of school !!!!

homeworks piling up , jobs waiting to be done ... and so on ....

AI-YAI-YAI!!!

pretty sure I'm gonna be bald at the end of the year...either because they fell off or because I pulled them out ^^ LOL!!!

anyways I've got to go ... tonnes of things waiting to be done ^^ till then , see ya !!

seperations

21th January 2010

YAY!!!! first post in 2010!!! happy belated new year everyone ^^
LOL !!!1

Wow.....how long has it been since i last updated my blog ???
well 3 months, I think ?
The same time I haven't wash my shoes ^^
anyway no more stupid jokes ^^...

Okay I'm in like form 4 now and honestly its really tiring =.="
tonnes of homework... new friends...your peeps moving away to a better school...new resposibility the usual...but what I want to share with you guys is when people are moving away and you are not gonna see them as often as you used too.

seperations are and will always happen to us no matter where we are... either in body or soul...
we are just human and people will come and go in our lives...but it hurts more when the people moving away is your best friend or close friends...people who had shared their thoughts with you...people who spent hours and hours to no end casually chatting around with you...those who meant alot to you are even just friends who you barely knew but like them anyways...

I know how much you wanted them to stay so that you can have your 'normal' lives again but we both know that is not gonna happen...I know I'm not much of an advisor or even someone smart but my advise to you is that if you really love them as your friends...even something a bit more... you will let them go...its best for both of you...I know that sounds cliche but its true... I myself aren't good with seperations...I am known to miss someone I met at camp for only 3 days... =)
LOL !

but as time goes on , those seperated will find new people ,friends but no matter where they go or where they are... I'm sure that you still have a special place for them in your hearts where no matter what happens... shall be theirs...no one can completely steal away friendship . I'm pretty sure one day in the future when you meet again ... you'll remember :

the moments you have shared,
the words that were spoken ,
the times you were there,
and the memories that can't be forgotten...

P/s: LOL...I wrote this cuz I will be seperated with my friends as well... I will miss you guys a lot ^^

The good things in my life...(so far)

Okay , I'm really sorry about my last gloomy post ...
to make it up to you guys , I've decided to write about happier times ...
Hmmm... lets see...

You know this whole year is the most happening year of all...
wanto know why ? well firstly I knew a HUGE secret from a friend of mine .
I can't tell you guys cause its not mine so ... sorry...

secondly well I used to be the quiet , rebellious girl (and still am sometimes) but I managed to Change , a little which is a big deal ^^ . Now I can talk all day long and still make an Idiot of my self .... Oh well , some things never change ^^

thirdly well , I dunno maybe cause this year I know I have lots of admirers (*blush* he he he), seriously >,< ! well I'm kinda shocked with some of them though ... ut still ... I'm kinda wondering why on earth would someone like , like me... I don't think that I'm attractive or anything... I don't care about my appearence , I sometimes act like a boy , my clothes are well ... really messy and most of all I like to make 'the angry' face (I call it that because I pretend to be angry when I'm not). Acaemicly ? not at all smart ....

oh well... lets just leave it at that *wink* he he he...

Lots of activeties this year...
people are mostly studying for our big exam but not me ... what am I doing (other then sleeping and drawing) I helped teachers at school (to get out of classes) and joining extra curricular actevities....(I'm not the least bit supraised if I didn't get 8A's for my exam...sigh...)

what else ???
...
....
.....
....
...

I know !!!
I finally got the courage to ... talk...to the person I like ....
even If its just a "ab...ah...h...h..hi....HI!"
well i know , pretty pathetic but I can't help it !!!
I'm shy to death ... Hippie said my face looked like a tomato ready to burst because I'm blushing sooo furiously....
oh well better luck next time -_-*

I was thinking...

Hey there ...
you know how my school ha sended right ???
well and you know how much I like to day dream and stuff...(when you see I'm smiling when I'm all alone is when I'm day dreaming ... of hyper whichever comes first) anyway here is the list of things that I day dreamed of today ... yes I actually got diligent enough to actually jot down what I was ACTUALLY thinking in this ACTUAL day !!!!!!! (actually thats a bit to much actual isen't it ???)

1)What the ?!?
I just woke up , I'm trying to anilisy what I was dreaming last night and what day it was today and all the usual facts...

2)What to do today...
well It IS the holidays remember ... well what to do ??? go back to sleep ? draw ? read a book ? Draw ? bake something and finish it my self ? so many questions ..... after hearing my stomach grumble ... I finaly decided to EAT... funny ... I never thought of eating ... *shrug*

3)What to eat
Cereal ? oatmeal ? nothing ? (my stomach disagree an the last thought)

4)what my friends are doing...
Sarah ? probobly sleeping and so is Alia and Nana ... Faie ? maybe of to work ... Mai ? No Clue... Daus? I don't wanna know... my future hubby ??? I wonder ....

5)what I'm doing if I'm at school...
probobly not bathing my cat thats for sure ...

6) future hubby ^^
what IS he doing right now....

7)wish I'm...
at school , having something to do ... hanging out with my BFFs (Best Freakish Friends)...having a laptop and playing games , online facebook/myspace ... updating my blog . ect

8)future hubby (again) ^^
I wonder what he is doing NOW.....probobly thinking of ME !!!
LOL !!!!! (no doubt ^^)

9)the last time I hung out with...
my BFFs , library Crew (my fellow Librarians or Libbys as I like to call them) my future hubby *blush* *blush* and Daus ... (why am I thinking of him???? EEEWWWWWWWW)

10) things...
Funny things (I'll smile) , sad things (I'll bit my lip) , embarassing things (I'll blow my cheeks to stop them from blushing) and things I wish that would happen .... (hmmm.... I'll think I want a pure white wedding dress ^^)

11)If...
I can drive , I won't have to cycle to Faies house , If I can have superpowers it would be mind reading and telecanysis .... so COOL ^^

12)future hubby....
I miss you ... do you miss me ???
(of course , who wouldn't right ?)

got to go now ... bye!!!

last day of school and other woes...

well yesterday IS the last day of school for all us lower secondary school students and I've got to admit its not as happy/sad as it used to be...

Sigh.....

you know how I always have this song stuck in my head according to my mood ?
well right now its Paramaore-ignorence...

If I'm a bad person , you don't like me ...
well I guess I'll make my own way...

keep poping in and out of my head, and also these lyrics,

well this is the best thing,
that could've happen,
any longer , I wouldn't have made it ,
It's not a war no ,
its not a repture ,
I'm just a person but you can't take it...

well... Its kinda how I feel right now... sigh

O.K breath in .... out ....
yesterday is the last day of school , now I'm stuck at home with nothing to do ....
with only my thoughts for company ....
BORING !!!!!!

anyways , nothing to write so....
See ya guys...

Taken

sigh ... I'm sooo disappointed today... why?

well have you ever know what it feels like for something (I said something NOT someone) taken away from you ??? Some thing that you have worked hard for or at least having high hopes for it .... but in the end you know it would disappear ?

I have , lots of times ... I never minded then , but maybe my ignorance then has finally taken its toll on me .... I actually cried !!! I rarely cry at school ... except when I was sick ... even then It tried to hide the tears. Any way all I'm saying is that to me , art is like apart of me ... weather in acting(average but still pretty good *wink*), singing (don't forget to bring some ear-plugs and an umbrella) or drawing(LOVE IT !!!). Its true , I've been drawing since the time I can hold a pencil and stand(you should see the walls of my old home soooo artistic if I do say so myself *smiles*).

I have this Idea/image/vision on how the drawing is suppose to be ... even if its not mine entirely I'll try my best to imagine it the artist's way .... and I know that I'M younger the you and I should RESPECT my SENIORS but as one of the designer , I have the right to voice out my disapproval , and as a RIGHT MINDED SENIOR (more like a senior citizen to me) you should at least take the time to hear me out , take the time to actually see what I have drawn ... what me and my friend have in our (more to his) minds when we actually design the drawing... ask us what colour it should be because we are the ones who design it and not YOU , you think that our drawing is some kind of colouring book ??? I know you don't have enough creativity to ACTUALLY design it and what makes you think you can colour with creativity as well ??? Who the heck do you think you are ??? We (me and Daus) asked many teachers on what colour we should use , and the teachers agree but YOU ???? only a mare students who ,is ONLY a year older ??? Oh please...

Think about it , I know everyone wants to contribute something to the school before they leave next year or the year after that but try to d it with out hurting anyone else's feelings .... I'm really upset,disappointed and ashamed on the drawing .... It's not that I don't like the colours and all but I just felt ... disappointed that it didn't go as planned .... That's why i prefer to do things myself....and not hope for people to do it for me cause I know they don't know what I want and I know they can't read minds...

Oh well , whats done is done ... we can't change the past (or drawing at the very least)...

K got to go now , i'll talk (write) to you guys later then ^^ Bye ^^

Paramore- ignorence

(SERIOUSLY !!!!! I've forgotten how to place a vid on my blog !!!! someone help me !!!)


Paramore-ignorance

if I'm a bad person , you don't like me,
well i guess I'll make my own way,
s a circle
a mean cycle
i cant excite you anymore
wheres your gavel? your jury?
whats my offense this time?
you re not a judge but if you re gonna judge me
well sentence me to another life.

dont wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
the friends who stuck together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

this is the best thing that couldve happened
any longer and i wouldnt have made it
its not a war no, its not a rapture
im just a person but you cant take it
the same tricks that once fooled me
they wont get you anywhere
im not the same kid from your memory
now i can fend for myself

dont wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
we used to stick together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

what is your colour Aura ???

Orange
Orange personalities are the creative adventurers in the color spectrum. They have an inner urge to be creative, active and enjoy life to its fullest. They are also individual and independent and integrate physical and mental qualities. They en...joy the challenge and excitement of forming and shaping physical reality. Orange personalities love to imagine and plan strategies for their next adventure or project and then put those plans into action. They need to be involved in the actual working process and want to physically shape and form their own ideas. They have difficulty sitting back and letting other people do things for them. They are always busy building, organizing and shaping their projects and physical reality. An Orange personality's motivation in life is based on how much pleasure and satisfaction they get out of their own adventures, challenges and creative projects. They want to be adventurous, creative and live out their own ideas.


Green
Greens are balanced, harmonious, and peaceful personalities. They need harmony in their life and prefer to live in a natural environment. They are the most balanced people in the color spectrum. They also have a powerful connection with nature. Living in the country, next to a forest or park or close to a lake or ocean is important for these friendly and heartfelt personalities. Greens are open, extroverted, expressive, friendly, communicative and heartfelt. Greens perceive life through their heart. Their primary motivations are contentment and harmony. They judge their successes by how close they are to their friends or nature. Greens are content personalities. If they are in power and have found their place they need very little to be happy or feel needed. Their inner happiness and satisfaction is important to them and is fulfilled without much expectation.


Red
The more excitement they experience the more alive they will feel. Reds are practical, action-oriented, love to achieve results and be successful. They have an insatiable urge to win and create something valuable and important in their life. Their strong will power and intense, almost unlimited physical energy allows them to be extremely active, persistent and successful in virtually anything they do.


Blue
Blues are the most caring, nurturing and protective personalities in the color-spectrum. They live out of their hearts and their emotions. Their life purpose is to serve, help and love others. Blues have an inner knowledge and wisdom and they feel and know what is right without needing facts or data for substantiation. The moment they become quiet inside, they will recognize or hear an inner voice or guidance, which will tell them what to do. They can easily tune into other people and feel precisely what is going on. Blues are the most emotional of all the color personalities. They often feel lost if they don't have the opportunity to clear their way through their intense jungle of deep feelings. Helpful activities for Blues would include talking with friends about their inner life, writing a journal or just being quiet so their intense emotions can calm down.

Yellow
Yellows are the sunniest, happiest and most childlike personalities in the color-spectrum. "All I want to do is have some fun!" is a song which is a wonderful representation of Yellows and shows their easy going, light and sunny character. These playful people have a wonderful sense of humor. They love to laugh and intimately enjoy life from many different angles. They advocate relaxation, the pure joy of life and live spontaneously. They are always reminding other people to not take life too seriously and to always look on the bright side. Life and work should both be enjoyed.

General Aura
an aura is a spiritual representation of who you are. at the moment, yours is very well balanced. eventually you may want to find a color to stick with, though.


soo what is yours ???
mine is orange ^^

Backstabers

I just hate them don't you ?

well for one thing backstabbers are total LOSERS because they know they will lose if they actually confront the person who they are backstabbing... what a LOSER ^^

second thing is that back stabbers are also COWARDS because they didn't have the courage or guts to tell the person what is bothering them in the first place .

third thing is that they are on of those NO-TALENTs who unfortunately for them have no talent at all and are always jealous of others and hates them for actually having a talent at something...
Awww...

forth , is that they are always all of the above....

actually , backstabbers are meant to be pitied , why ? of course because well not many people can be an absolute poop head , gutless coward and no talents at the same time right ? well not to mention that no one wants to be in the first place.... but still there are many backstabbers out there... It may or may not be you but please bear in mind that no one likes a backstabber... have Any problems with me , just confront me so I know that your not a gutless coward who has no talent what so ever and have a poop for a head ^-^

sorry , sorry , sorry ...

I know I haven't posted any post lately so ... here it is ... a post ...

L-A-M-E!!!
lame ...

I know ...
well hopefully I'll continue posting to this blog some time soon ...

New Moon !!!!!!

I just watched the twilight: New moon Trailer 2 and Taylor lautner is soooooo *drools*

watch it !!!! seriously !!!!

Mai/ Hippie/ Monkey

This is a post I totally dedicate to My Best Monkey-like friend (Oops.... Did I just say/Type that OUT LOUD?)

Maisarah binti Mohd Nazary .
we have been doing things together since form 2 , I met her In form 1...

I'll admit that she is such a good friend ... what am I saying , She is a GREAT friend !!!! she is a good listener , she gave good advice and she understands my language (both of us speaks crazy , didn't you know ?)

but the thing that annoys me about her is that , I can't pretend ... not that I like to pretend , sometimes I like to pretend that I'm actually having a nice day but she could see right through me !!!!
*sigh*
oh well were here to celebrate BFFs day of the world which is today !!!!
what is better then remembering your BFF for today but she is one of the 5 of my BFF ...

maybe I'll write about all my other friends soon enough ^^

Librarians that I know and Love

Yup ...
I'm now officially a Librarian (since I'm such a lazy butt I'll just call it a Liby for Librarian)

Today is Tuesday , but its a holiday so I usually think of what I would do at school and at this case being a Liby. well actually , all of us Form 3 students are suppose to stay at home and study but Me and Hippie are at the library cuz' were kinda (ehem...) lazy to stay home and study ....

in the library , so far I've known 4 form 4 students ...

Kak Eleena:
she is one funny and crazy form 4 . She is really outgoing and sporting . I love being friends with her ... she is one of the first liby that I know and love ...
hi hi hi ^^

kak Fateen:
She is really beautiful , I'll tell you that ! ! !
she loves to read novels and is really sweet , kind and just friendly. even if she is bit quiet...

Thaqif:
ahhh.... Thaqif , he is one funny dude ...
don't have much to tell about him though ....
but all I know is that he can be pretty strict and quiet ...
either way I still like being friends with him though....
oh and he is Tariq's twin

Tariq:
hahaha....
he is really funny !!
and really friendly and outgoing ....
to tell you the truth , I don't really know what to write about him...
sorry Boss if your reading this ...
(I don't expect you too)

So in a Nutshell , I still love being friends with them each with their own unique personality and style ^^
oh well , duty awaits ^^...

P/s : since I've just met them I don't really know them that well , this is my first impression of them ... hope you guys aren't mad at me or anything :(

I'm Hurt....

You want to know something...

there is this girl in school (I'll trying not to be too specific)

I'm SOOOOO mad at her !!!!!

She is Such a Drama queen !!!

everything that i want she wants it too !!!!!



AARRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



then in the end she will get the 'thing' while I will just stand in the corner and TRY to be happy for her !!!!!!



I'm so sick of being soo happy for others while I'm actually broken up inside !!!!

*sigh*





It has been happening since she moved here ....

I'm really sad ....

oh well look out world ...

the mask I'm wearing is gonna fool all of you so...

HAH !!!!



but the truth is I also like to see others happy , even if it means hurting myself ....

so be happy , even if I'm not ...

Last day for ....

It was the last day of the semester and also the last day of syaa'ban . I was really bored in class , not that Hippie (maisarah) was boring and all , It's mostly because well , do you notice that me and Hippie , never ran out of things to say , well , we did ran out of things to say and we were both really quiet ... then we decided to play a game called truth (used to be called truth or dare but since everyone kept choosing truth so...) we spin a pencil and the 'lucky' participant will get the opportunity to be asked any questions and we have to answer it truthfully . I played that game with Hippie , Nurin and Anis . the questions they ask is soo hard , not the average , "who do you like" questions ..... well what do you expect from two N.Gs (naturally geniuses).

after that we got ready to go home . i met up with Faie and Eleena . Faie offered to give me a ride home so I accepted (obviously !) but I don't know where or why or how , I suddenly got a sudden burst of energy and shouted goodbye and happy 'Puasa' to everyone I know including the Seniors who I don't even know their names !!!! I was waiting outside gate B and since most students I know went through that gate It wasn't long before I was out of breath . I was smiling like a lunatic and my face was as red as a tomato with all the excitement (and the sun was shining down on us so ... yeah) ... I don't even know how or why , can't be because the holidays are coming , cuz' I hate holidays ! oh well at least no one looked at me like a totall FREAK , but some did smile and looked at me as if I've lost my mind ...

Wow , I'm so Weired ^^
oh well my weirdness is what makes me unique ^^