busy busy busy busy

22nd January 2010

Whoa!!!

this year is getting extreamly busyy...not just for me but every one in form 4.... and to make it worse , its just the end of the 3rd week of school !!!!

homeworks piling up , jobs waiting to be done ... and so on ....

AI-YAI-YAI!!!

pretty sure I'm gonna be bald at the end of the year...either because they fell off or because I pulled them out ^^ LOL!!!

anyways I've got to go ... tonnes of things waiting to be done ^^ till then , see ya !!

seperations

21th January 2010

YAY!!!! first post in 2010!!! happy belated new year everyone ^^
LOL !!!1

Wow.....how long has it been since i last updated my blog ???
well 3 months, I think ?
The same time I haven't wash my shoes ^^
anyway no more stupid jokes ^^...

Okay I'm in like form 4 now and honestly its really tiring =.="
tonnes of homework... new friends...your peeps moving away to a better school...new resposibility the usual...but what I want to share with you guys is when people are moving away and you are not gonna see them as often as you used too.

seperations are and will always happen to us no matter where we are... either in body or soul...
we are just human and people will come and go in our lives...but it hurts more when the people moving away is your best friend or close friends...people who had shared their thoughts with you...people who spent hours and hours to no end casually chatting around with you...those who meant alot to you are even just friends who you barely knew but like them anyways...

I know how much you wanted them to stay so that you can have your 'normal' lives again but we both know that is not gonna happen...I know I'm not much of an advisor or even someone smart but my advise to you is that if you really love them as your friends...even something a bit more... you will let them go...its best for both of you...I know that sounds cliche but its true... I myself aren't good with seperations...I am known to miss someone I met at camp for only 3 days... =)
LOL !

but as time goes on , those seperated will find new people ,friends but no matter where they go or where they are... I'm sure that you still have a special place for them in your hearts where no matter what happens... shall be theirs...no one can completely steal away friendship . I'm pretty sure one day in the future when you meet again ... you'll remember :

the moments you have shared,
the words that were spoken ,
the times you were there,
and the memories that can't be forgotten...

P/s: LOL...I wrote this cuz I will be seperated with my friends as well... I will miss you guys a lot ^^

The good things in my life...(so far)

Okay , I'm really sorry about my last gloomy post ...
to make it up to you guys , I've decided to write about happier times ...
Hmmm... lets see...

You know this whole year is the most happening year of all...
wanto know why ? well firstly I knew a HUGE secret from a friend of mine .
I can't tell you guys cause its not mine so ... sorry...

secondly well I used to be the quiet , rebellious girl (and still am sometimes) but I managed to Change , a little which is a big deal ^^ . Now I can talk all day long and still make an Idiot of my self .... Oh well , some things never change ^^

thirdly well , I dunno maybe cause this year I know I have lots of admirers (*blush* he he he), seriously >,< ! well I'm kinda shocked with some of them though ... ut still ... I'm kinda wondering why on earth would someone like , like me... I don't think that I'm attractive or anything... I don't care about my appearence , I sometimes act like a boy , my clothes are well ... really messy and most of all I like to make 'the angry' face (I call it that because I pretend to be angry when I'm not). Acaemicly ? not at all smart ....

oh well... lets just leave it at that *wink* he he he...

Lots of activeties this year...
people are mostly studying for our big exam but not me ... what am I doing (other then sleeping and drawing) I helped teachers at school (to get out of classes) and joining extra curricular actevities....(I'm not the least bit supraised if I didn't get 8A's for my exam...sigh...)

what else ???
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I know !!!
I finally got the courage to ... talk...to the person I like ....
even If its just a "ab...ah...h...h..hi....HI!"
well i know , pretty pathetic but I can't help it !!!
I'm shy to death ... Hippie said my face looked like a tomato ready to burst because I'm blushing sooo furiously....
oh well better luck next time -_-*

I was thinking...

Hey there ...
you know how my school ha sended right ???
well and you know how much I like to day dream and stuff...(when you see I'm smiling when I'm all alone is when I'm day dreaming ... of hyper whichever comes first) anyway here is the list of things that I day dreamed of today ... yes I actually got diligent enough to actually jot down what I was ACTUALLY thinking in this ACTUAL day !!!!!!! (actually thats a bit to much actual isen't it ???)

1)What the ?!?
I just woke up , I'm trying to anilisy what I was dreaming last night and what day it was today and all the usual facts...

2)What to do today...
well It IS the holidays remember ... well what to do ??? go back to sleep ? draw ? read a book ? Draw ? bake something and finish it my self ? so many questions ..... after hearing my stomach grumble ... I finaly decided to EAT... funny ... I never thought of eating ... *shrug*

3)What to eat
Cereal ? oatmeal ? nothing ? (my stomach disagree an the last thought)

4)what my friends are doing...
Sarah ? probobly sleeping and so is Alia and Nana ... Faie ? maybe of to work ... Mai ? No Clue... Daus? I don't wanna know... my future hubby ??? I wonder ....

5)what I'm doing if I'm at school...
probobly not bathing my cat thats for sure ...

6) future hubby ^^
what IS he doing right now....

7)wish I'm...
at school , having something to do ... hanging out with my BFFs (Best Freakish Friends)...having a laptop and playing games , online facebook/myspace ... updating my blog . ect

8)future hubby (again) ^^
I wonder what he is doing NOW.....probobly thinking of ME !!!
LOL !!!!! (no doubt ^^)

9)the last time I hung out with...
my BFFs , library Crew (my fellow Librarians or Libbys as I like to call them) my future hubby *blush* *blush* and Daus ... (why am I thinking of him???? EEEWWWWWWWW)

10) things...
Funny things (I'll smile) , sad things (I'll bit my lip) , embarassing things (I'll blow my cheeks to stop them from blushing) and things I wish that would happen .... (hmmm.... I'll think I want a pure white wedding dress ^^)

11)If...
I can drive , I won't have to cycle to Faies house , If I can have superpowers it would be mind reading and telecanysis .... so COOL ^^

12)future hubby....
I miss you ... do you miss me ???
(of course , who wouldn't right ?)

got to go now ... bye!!!

last day of school and other woes...

well yesterday IS the last day of school for all us lower secondary school students and I've got to admit its not as happy/sad as it used to be...

Sigh.....

you know how I always have this song stuck in my head according to my mood ?
well right now its Paramaore-ignorence...

If I'm a bad person , you don't like me ...
well I guess I'll make my own way...

keep poping in and out of my head, and also these lyrics,

well this is the best thing,
that could've happen,
any longer , I wouldn't have made it ,
It's not a war no ,
its not a repture ,
I'm just a person but you can't take it...

well... Its kinda how I feel right now... sigh

O.K breath in .... out ....
yesterday is the last day of school , now I'm stuck at home with nothing to do ....
with only my thoughts for company ....
BORING !!!!!!

anyways , nothing to write so....
See ya guys...

Taken

sigh ... I'm sooo disappointed today... why?

well have you ever know what it feels like for something (I said something NOT someone) taken away from you ??? Some thing that you have worked hard for or at least having high hopes for it .... but in the end you know it would disappear ?

I have , lots of times ... I never minded then , but maybe my ignorance then has finally taken its toll on me .... I actually cried !!! I rarely cry at school ... except when I was sick ... even then It tried to hide the tears. Any way all I'm saying is that to me , art is like apart of me ... weather in acting(average but still pretty good *wink*), singing (don't forget to bring some ear-plugs and an umbrella) or drawing(LOVE IT !!!). Its true , I've been drawing since the time I can hold a pencil and stand(you should see the walls of my old home soooo artistic if I do say so myself *smiles*).

I have this Idea/image/vision on how the drawing is suppose to be ... even if its not mine entirely I'll try my best to imagine it the artist's way .... and I know that I'M younger the you and I should RESPECT my SENIORS but as one of the designer , I have the right to voice out my disapproval , and as a RIGHT MINDED SENIOR (more like a senior citizen to me) you should at least take the time to hear me out , take the time to actually see what I have drawn ... what me and my friend have in our (more to his) minds when we actually design the drawing... ask us what colour it should be because we are the ones who design it and not YOU , you think that our drawing is some kind of colouring book ??? I know you don't have enough creativity to ACTUALLY design it and what makes you think you can colour with creativity as well ??? Who the heck do you think you are ??? We (me and Daus) asked many teachers on what colour we should use , and the teachers agree but YOU ???? only a mare students who ,is ONLY a year older ??? Oh please...

Think about it , I know everyone wants to contribute something to the school before they leave next year or the year after that but try to d it with out hurting anyone else's feelings .... I'm really upset,disappointed and ashamed on the drawing .... It's not that I don't like the colours and all but I just felt ... disappointed that it didn't go as planned .... That's why i prefer to do things myself....and not hope for people to do it for me cause I know they don't know what I want and I know they can't read minds...

Oh well , whats done is done ... we can't change the past (or drawing at the very least)...

K got to go now , i'll talk (write) to you guys later then ^^ Bye ^^

Paramore- ignorence

(SERIOUSLY !!!!! I've forgotten how to place a vid on my blog !!!! someone help me !!!)


Paramore-ignorance

if I'm a bad person , you don't like me,
well i guess I'll make my own way,
s a circle
a mean cycle
i cant excite you anymore
wheres your gavel? your jury?
whats my offense this time?
you re not a judge but if you re gonna judge me
well sentence me to another life.

dont wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
the friends who stuck together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

this is the best thing that couldve happened
any longer and i wouldnt have made it
its not a war no, its not a rapture
im just a person but you cant take it
the same tricks that once fooled me
they wont get you anywhere
im not the same kid from your memory
now i can fend for myself

dont wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when you swear its all my fault
cause you know were not the same
oh were not the same
we used to stick together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you cant accept that the change is good
its good

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out

ignorance is your new best friend

you treat me just like another stranger
well its nice to meet you sir
i guess ill go
i best be on my way out